I'm in a bubble. A beautifully iridescent and safe bubble. I don't want this feeling to go away. I don't want to wake up to the reality of this crazy and chaotic world. I want to lay here and bask in the wonders of this bubble forever....
My husband went on a 3 day weekend with God. It was a spiritual retreat with no clocks, no phones, no distractions. Only God. He went away on Thursday night, not really knowing what to expect. He was optimistic and knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that it was time. He was supposed to have gone a few months ago, but every door closed and every possible complication arose- keeping him from going. This time, there was not one issue. Everything pointed to him going. God facilitated it without a hitch.
The entire weekend I would stop at random moments to pray for Mike. I had no expectations for this weekend. I would start to imagine how he would act or what he would say when he got home, and I would quickly stop myself. I didn't want to ruin what God had planned by throwing in plans of my own. (Plus, honestly, a secret part of me was worried he would keep his heart locked in a steel cage and come home exactly as he had left.)
So imagine my delight when I see my gorgeous husband walk up to the house with a huge smile on his handsome face. He was different. He didn't even have to speak. I could see it. I could feel it. When he looked at me, I swear I could see a twinkle in his eyes. When he spoke, he spoke with passion, with emotion. He was steady and sure of every word. His voice was kind, gentle, loving. He exuded the Spirit in ways I have never before experienced. The best way for me to explain or put this all into words, is to say that my husband is alive!
Yes, of course he had a pulse when he left here on Thursday, but I assure you, he was a dead man walking around. He was unsure of himself and of his place in this world, and in God's plan. But after being completely immersed in the Father for 3 days, my husband has pure joy. It is coming out of every pore and glowing all around him.
Laying with him last night, I just quietly listened to his soft deep breaths of his peaceful slumber. I could feel God's presence all around us. I haven't felt such peace in a very long time, if ever. It was comfort, peace, joy, it was love. I could have fallen to sleep with such ease, but instead I laid there basking in His presence, not wanting it to end. Enjoying my bubble.
Being with him I feel giddy. I feel a little nervous, to be honest. Like we are starting this relationship fresh. Brand new. He is a new man and we are going to re-start this journey in a whole new light. God is doing something huge in my husband and I know when I go on the women's retreat in a couple weeks, He is going to blow me away.
I am so grateful for every step we have taken. I am so grateful for God bringing us to Georgia and this small, but incredible community. I am grateful for Restoration Church and every single soul that I have met through it. I am grateful for our fearless leaders, Alan and Jennifer Darsey, who God has used to completely shake our world and change our hearts/minds/lives. I am grateful for Tres Dias and the incredible work they are doing for the Kingdom of God. I could go on and on, and I will throughout the day, continue to stop and thank Him- naturally crying like a baby. Thank you Jesus, for the freedom you have given to my love. Thank you for giving me a brand new husband.
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